Behind in life, Profesionally Speaking
Do you ever feel like you’re behind in life? I definitely feel like I am behind and not where I need and/or want to be.
I see people in my field taking advantage of new business opportunities, getting promoted, being hired, etc. And me? I’m an introverted, confused college student.
I understand people reach certain milestones at different times, but still being an unemployed, undergraduate at the age of 25 truly makes me feel like a late bloomer. This sense of inadequacy is perpetuated more so by my introverted personality. I’m incredibly insecure even when it comes design, which I am good at. When I graduate, I have no idea how to properly promote my skills or network professionally (Fuck, I’m suppose to be be promoting and networking NOW and I haven’t!). The whole process makes me anxious & nervous, that I just ignore the impending doom and watch a YouTube makeup video or watch a cartoon. Avoidance is my destructive coping mechanism.
It seems like I am doing nothing, but I do work exceptionally hard in school. It’s just taking my skills and the work I’ve created in school to work for my advantage is where I utterly fail.
Perhaps I need to get organized, list what I need to do, and steadily chip away at the list to help me feel more comfortable. I need to attack my goals in a structured way because that is what I respond to the best (I thrive in a structured academic environment). Okay, that sounds like a plan. Time to get started… right after this episode of Arthur…
